Passing of an era

for the last few years i was taking care of my dad, aka the Geezer. The Tuesday before Memorial day, he was hospitalized due to a serious UTI and pneumonia. he spent a week in a hospital then spent 3 weeks in a rehab facility. then came home then went back to the hospital. Another bout of the UTI and pneumonia and MRSA! the MRSA he got at the short term facility. Another week in the hospital and 3 weeks in another facillity. then home for 2 weeks. then he had to go back to the hospital and another rehab place.
     while at the rehab place he was sent back to the hospital, blood in his urine and shaking and fever. another week in the hospital. Now onto the final rehab place. this past Saturday, as i am pulling into their parking lot, i get a call from the rehab place, Geezer fell and he hit his head. paramedics were were on scene and about to take him to a hospital. call brother about it. he said keep him posted.

    finally get up to the floor, told to wait in another room. there was issues with the room. after several minutes, finally told he was not going to make it and was dying! got brother down to facility.

    since then i have been on a roller coaster of emotions since then. last night was the first night i slept through the night. today was the first day i didn't start crying when i told people about his passing.

Ongoing meds search and disability paers

Finally got the geezer's meds at St Vincent's hospital. Still no reason why the meds were there rather my local CVS. Geezer's doctor said something to the effect that because the meds came from the hospital that is why. Relayed that tidbit to the pharmacy staff at St V's, they were surprised and thought that was fishy. turns out that meds were cheaper there than at the local CVS.

Next bone of contention is deals my recent "move" to a new doctor. I like my new doctor. Somehow had to get my medical records transferred to them. Itsy bitsy problem. Previous doctor retired about 2 years ago and i hadn't had a need for a new doctor til recently.

When i was in the office i signed a release form to get the records. Well no one could find them. I called the insurance company to get advice about the matter. BIG MISTAKE!!!  The person i talked with had no clue. I remembered that the Geezer got a letter from our then doctor that she was retiring and all records were going to another practice. I called them with my quandary and got some results!!! I called my new doctor's office and told the gal there to try calling a particular person. Possible results!

Reason for the new doctor and trying to get my records is I am filing for disability and need to get a medical report included with the application.

tensions

had the social worker from the home care group here this morning. while in conversation with her, brother calls and wanted to talk about my paperwork for disability. he was annoyed about something or other. told him i could not talk at the moment he still wanted to talk and was mad that i couldn't talk a that exact moment when i called him later, saying i was involved with dad's rehab, still wasn't good.

Geezerness

for several years i have been the primary caregiver to my aging parents. Mom died in 2007 of a third and final stroke. recently dad (aka the geezer) developed pneumonia and an UTI which hospitalized him twice for almost 2 months. he got home about a week ago and brother left town to leave me to care for the geezer. brother's wife has not called to at least offer help or to see what is going on my place. the geezer doesn't hear and needs hearing aids. most of the time i am screaming at him and times he doesn't hear me.

rolling through life

for the last few months i have been mulling over the idea of taking one serious adventure - rving across America!! there are a lot of different areas in this country! would not even begin to start, well besides the obvious of getting a RV and go out. there are other folks out there doing what i want to do.

 i wonder how can i make my adventure and blogs about the adventure be different. i am not sure if my idea and the ideas of those already on the road are all that different. its looking for an audience and writing for them. big thing is to find my own voice in writing and start to write and blog every day, or at least aim to blog every day. posting pics of the day/week and where those pics are from. what the days and nights are like on the road alone.

part of the rolling through this adventure is leaving the place i called home for most of my life. born and raised in CT then taking care of elderly parents with little help from other family. this would be a serious undertaking.

need a break

Have you ever felt like you just need to take the rest of your life off? take a life long vacation from reality?

the last few months my mind has wondered from here to parts unknown. i would take mini-break from home and realized it was well deserved. i would say within a few days of being home i realized how needed the time away was needed. i am the primary caregiver to a senior with little of no help from a sibling. the sibling shows up when its convenient which is about once every 3 months and be here for a short time. when i ask sibling to do more he would promise and nothing happens. he doesn't even wonder why i get agitated.

my opinion is that he thinks i am living in a house with little care. him showing up when he does is a blessing. promises made and broken. he doesn't even acknowledge he breaks promises. he has not helped out when it was needed.