for the last few weeks i have kept my self busy with my new place and all that it entails. now it has come to a snail's pace because there is not much to do or need. there is the usual upkeep of any residance but the essential things of getting my life situated here is basically over, now i have boredom.

this is the first summer which i don't have to care for other people. my life up to last October was caring for others. even though dad was either in the hospital or nursing home, it was me making the decisions for his care and about the house.

Afternoon Delights

there are numerous sites on the web for those who want to hook up with someone for dates and other acitivities. i had signed up with one those sites who matched people who wanted affairs. not sure why i did but i did sometime ago. i didn't use the site at all for a long time. i had no space or time for awhile.

this weekend i felt like getting online to this affairs website and see what would happen. well i got into "conversation" with one man who was married and was looking for something outside of his marriage. after 20 hours of going back and forth he came over to the hotel i was staying in and for the first time in 12 years i had sex.

forgot how good sex felt! we went at it for 45 minutes.

Since dad's death a lot has happened. House had to put up for sale, something we knew that needed to be done. Dad has taken out a reverse mortgage some years before Mom died. House was on the market for about 5 days when we had about 15 offers for the place. Two were real good considering the age and condition of the house. One offer backed out because of wetlands concern. at this time the sale is still pending.

I have since moved out of the house and into the house of a friend's house, some 1200 miles away from where I lived for all of my life. it's surreal to be soo far away from the place i lived and loved. There were moments that i thought i should turn back to CT and find someplace there to live and forgo moving to MO. There were times that i thought it was great to move. now that i am here for a few days, jury is still out on the move.

Friend's house doesn't have a working furnace, has only hot water. my cat is not allowed into the rest of the house. I got here on Saturday and its now Tuesday, been sleeping on the couch and my cat's been in what will be my bedroom. my furniture has not arrived yet. got an email that the movers will be here tuesday. no more sleeping on that damn couch!

Whined to another friend. she said it may just take tome to get adjusted to the new place. if things don't work out with MO, then i can move to other friend's house on the Navajo rez. that friend has heat.